fuck this job.com

My heart aching as I’m typing this, I just can’t believe that I reached this limit!
I’m a Freaking Engineer … started my “First” job as a Senior Engineer and elevated within 2 years to a Project Manager and within 6 months to Business Development Manager … and here I am … a year later … 3 years of work and a manager already... lucky right?! Well NOOOOOOOOOOOO … NOT LUCKY … I HATE IT … I’m chocking with tears … I HATE IT … I would rather cooking or cleaning someone’s house rather than doing any of those jobs … This is too painful … I left my last job and I don’t want to go back … The manager calling me often and asking me to come back … but I can’t … and what’s hurting me even more that I like art and design … and no one will take me in those fields with my freaking Engineering degree … no one willing to give me a chance … I want to design … am damn good at it and it’s all I want to do … this is NOT FAIR … I really don't know what to do!! :””(