fuck this job.com

Sorry for the double post but this really didn't fit in the other one... Last night I finally realized why I've reached the point where I'm actively seeking another job, after over 10 years at this one. I've realized that I've had it with being expected to go out on various limbs, solve problems, start new projects, etc... and I do it dutifully, and then I look over my shoulder -- and nobody is following behind me.

I've been forced so far out of my comfort zone, that I've outgrown these people. Or at least, I have outgrown the dynamic in this department.

Y'all know about my software problem. Well, that's just the tip of the iceberg. People giggle and shrug when I bring up the software problem; they don't take it seriously. My boss planned this big, very visible new project that I am expected to work on every day... pushed and pushed for me to debut it before it was really ready (while another co-worker who was involved, went on vacation at a critical moment)... and now seems to have lost interest in it. We never have meetings about the project, *I* always have to bring up any problems with it, etc.

Here's the incident that recently happened that is the perfect example in a nutshell of what is wrong. About a month ago, I was asked to go with my boss to give a presentation of a very important project we were working on, to the *president of the company*. Everyone is scared of this man. My boss would be doing the spiel, while I would be doing the technical demonstration and answering questions (yes, I am expected to do this along with fixing the fucking copy machine back at the office). So I showed up to the meeting room a half hour early to make sure everything was in working order. I was super prepared.

So I'm sitting out there in the hallway waiting. And waiting. And waiting for my boss to show up. And she's not showing up. We had a specific spot on the agenda at a specific time and only had five minutes for this. And everyone is looking at me like I am in deep shit, because the company president is expecting this presentation and someone better give it to him. And I don't know the spiel. I am not the spiel speaker. But soon I realize that I am just going to have to wing it. So I calm myself down and face the unthinkable, I get ready to walk into the conference room, and... at the last fucking second... my boss finally shows up. NO EXPLANATION for her lateness. No apology.

That in a nutshell is what is making me feel so shitty about my job. I am now on a 24-hour schedule, doing these new projects, and everyone else is still not.