fuck this job.com

This is getting so much more painful by the day. I have realized that maybe changing jobs isn't the answer. I really, honestly, do not have a CLUE as to what I want to do with my life. I have no passion to pursue anything. I feel so beaten down and defeated, I just want to curl up and die.

Yet again, I feel as though I've made another mistake in choosing careers. I swear to God, my resume looks like a schizophrenic wrote it - I've done so many different things that are only remotely related.

Why does this always happen? I think the problem is with me. I think I'm seriously depressed or something. I get all excited and hyped up about new prospects only to be disappointed. I feel as though I've wasted my entire youth on what? Chasing empty promises?

God...I really just don't know what to do. Today I was seriously so close to handing in my 2 weeks notice even with nothing else lined up. I don't see any of my friends anymore. I've had no girlfriend for the past year. And all I do is think about how much my life and job sucks. And I keep worrying about EVERYTHING. For fucks sake, I don't even sound like a man anymore, listen to this shit.

I'm so stressed. I dread going into work. I'm having doubts about what I'm majoring in at for school (AGAIN), and doubting my career choice (for the 3rd fucking time). I really just want to give up. I hope I get struck dead by lightning. What a goddamn waste.