fuck this job.com

Does anyone else but me feel like weekends and holidays are tropical islands filled with bounties of everything that's GOOD in life floating admist a sea of chaos, turmoil, bullshit, bad vibes, and soul-sucking known as the "work week"?

Christmas went by damn fast. This week dragged, but when you hate your job and your life, the work weeks always DRAG. Now at least I'm looking forward to New Years. Another 3 days off. Another 4 day week next week. I feel as if I've swam in that work week ocean and am now seeing the shoreline to the next Paradise Island.

I'm starting to learn how to shed the work when the day is over. It largely has to do with kind of conditioning yourself to "forget" and "not give a fuck". I think this trait becomes stronger and stronger as you progress through your working life. Now, with 3 days off - I'm going to keep flying under the radar for the next 9 hours tomorrow and just get the fuck out of dodge.

Talk about being stressed...I'm one of the managers for a multi-billion dollar construction project. I'm being trained...but when the senior engineer takes a week off and leaves you in the drivers' seat...my God...my blood pressure has been up all week. I'm getting headaches and everything. But, I'm surviving best I can...it is good experience, but I need to switch out of this industry all together.

Good thing my educational background (engineering) is applicable to any field out there - provided I'm willing to take paycuts every now and then - which I am. I've got a government job that's been jerking me around the past 2 months but the dept. I interviewed with was impressed and want to hire me. But, these bureaucratic idiots from Personnel (every govt. dept. has an HR or Personnel) keep throwing them all these fucking hurdles.

Do you have any idea how painful that is? I feel like I'm being lead of a cliff by a carrot on a stick...while walking on a trail of broken glass. How's that for symbolism?

Meh. Happy New Year, comrades. I am going to get so fucking piss drunk this weekend...