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A ray of light.

I just finished reading Xstate's most recent blog "Your Worst Job Hazards" and one point made glared at me more than any other:

"3. Don't care about your co-workers. I don't care how nice or friendly or helpful they are, your co-workers will stab you in the back. DOn't make friends with anyone at your workplace for they will eventually turn on you. I made that mistake a couple of times and it got me fired once. I usually try to keep a low profile at work."

Correct. Absolutely 100% correctomundifico man. It was like a slap in the face for me. I absolutely hate my coworkers and I wish to God they'd leave me the hell alone but I've been straining smiles and doing things outside of my job description when all I want to say is, NO. It's a hazard of an all female staff, particularly when you don't fit the stereotype that everyone else lives. I've been biting my lip and sucking down the blood and allowing myself to be manipulated since I got there. What was I so afraid of? Them not liking me? They talk about me behind my back anyway. Twisted "aetheist" that I am. Victimization? (As if they don't pick on the fact that I'm the youngest one there already.) This gayness has to stop and it'll only stop when I put down the mask and let them see the real me. I guess the only one I've really been afraid of is myself. I'm fucking crazy, and I've got the nastiest mouth in the universe if I let loose with it. Not foul as in cursing, which I rather enjoy as a linguistic enhancer and pass time. But bloody insulting with a sharp psychoanalytic edge. I'll keep the beast on a leash, but I'll make sure she's in plain view at all times.

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yep that sounds exactly like
Submitted by Teenage_Lobotomy on Sat, 05/19/2007 - 22:29.

yep that sounds exactly like me and where I work. Those people freaked me out from the minute I got there. They all go out together on weekends and they are all "best" friends. My first day there they tested me with their gossip and when I reacted indifferently to it they knew I wasn't one of them.
I disagree slightly though. My last job was torture from the get go. It was my first full time job and I was frightened. I was in a mostly french environment and I was the youngest there. I didn't trust anyone. I pretty much kept my mouth shut for three months when I started. Then one day they moved me to a different desk near this one girl who was about my age and english and we just started talking. We actually became very good friends and she's one of the most just and fair and strong people I know. But I didn't go looking for friends, it just happened.

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