fuck this job.com

Love the work I do, hate my job.

I just finished three weeks of complete and utter BS. There are two people that run our sub-department, I’m one of them. When I leave for vacation I make sure I’m totally covered and have a replacement who is willing to come in. I do this because the other person will not do anything that is outside her job description, ie: my job. When she leaves I run the whole show. It sucks. Luckily she doesn’t ever leave for very long.

The past month was hell. She was gone and I was totally fine with that. She’s not the problem. The problem is the management of the other sub-departments as well as my supervisor.

On day 1 I sent out an email stating that since this is our busiest time of year that it would be hectic over here & if they bear with me things should run smooth. I also noted in the email that I would be working hellish hours (12-13 hr days covering my shift as well as half the other shift) in order to have everything covered. My job depends on that of every other department as well as my co-workers job so I pretty much had to handle everything in order for the place to run smoothly. I didn’t get any responses.

On day 2 I start getting what I now call hate mail everday from my supervisor. “This isn’t right. You need to do this. Blah blah blah blah blah. Oh yeah and be sure you do this (same this as before). I told you that you needed to do this, it doesn’t look like you’re doing it. Employee X says that this is what happened, why are you letting this happen?” The answer to all of these questions is that “It’s not my job. I am not the person who does this. I will speak with so and so about this once again.” Apparently supervisor thinks that I need to check the quality of everything. While I understand where she’s coming from, it’s still not my job.

At this point I have two projects on my desk that need to go out the same day & because I don’t want to deal with more inevitable shit I agree to take on a third.

At the end of the week I accidentally drop the ball on a change for a client. Remember 12-13 hour days, plus I have two small kids at home who wake up at 5 am. From the moment I step foot in the office my phone is ringing every 1-3 minutes with requests. I’m tired and dragging and I didn’t make a clear connection on what was needed of me. I was a day behind in my thinking. So now the manager of dept. B has it in his head that I can’t do my job. I get berated on if I say I’m going to do something then I need to do it. Yes I know that, but when I thought I had an extra day I put it out of my mind.

I come back to work after a short weekend to find a change for a client with a note that an employee in dept B will call later. Employee calls and says that Manager of dept B wanted him to call. Great, now I’m being checked up on. Along with this I have even more hate mail with the same crap from Supervisor. I’ve been here longer than both of them, I do my job & I do it well. Unfortunately because we’re short-staffed to begin with and I was even shorter-staffed I, once again, turned into the idiot of the department. I can’t do anything right, I’m too slow getting things done, and I haven’t been working to my potential.

So basically I went three weeks on 12-13 hour days of constant “I need this now” from 15 other people, plus my own staff (who are the only reason I come back each day) and getting criticized and berated for not running the show perfectly. Thank goodness my co-worker is back and has backed me 120% on all the crap. She went so far as to tell them that all that I have done should be commended, not crapped on. This is the first time at this time of year that we’ve only had one make-good… most years we have 5 or 6 or more. Plus we didn’t miss a deadline once. How is that not doing my job?

I can’t wait until something better comes along. Then I can tell them all to kiss my ever-loving ass and good luck running the dept without me!