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Whose Fault Is It Anyway??

Yes, work suck.
Yes, the boss is an ass.
Yes, I feel stuck due to many different reasons.
Yes, my life sucks on some level.
Yes, I am not happy.

If I could do things over again I would. So many wasted opportunities. So much squandered time. At every turn in my life, I've made decisions that have added up to where I am now. Each wrong decision has left me a little less confident, a little less sure of myself; yet a little wiser and stronger.

The institutions I was raised to believe in are nothing but paper tigers; false gods.
I ignored the gnawing feelings telling me, "something is wrong."
I accepted certain false beliefs in order to survive; I did the best I could with what I knew.
Now I pay the price.

I was hard, but now I'm soft.
I thought I knew it all, but now I know nothing.
I was angry, but now I'm in pain.

An arrogant fool I was, yes.

Now I'm spent.
Now I'm lonely.
Now I'm afraid.
And sad.

I have no one to blame but myself.

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Darth
Submitted by whattda on Sat, 08/25/2007 - 14:43.

I can only say, I'm right there with you, my friend. Right there with you.

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You Get Another Shot Tomorrow
Submitted by Mister X on Sat, 08/25/2007 - 22:55.

It's absolutely true what they say. Sure, you can't blame anyone but yourself for your life. You are totally to blame. BUT, that doesn't mean you're going to beat yourself up. Hell no! Don't jump all over yourself mate. That's the biggest mistake of all.

Sure, you made some bad decisions. But you can make BETTER decisions in the future too. You can STILL hit your targets my friend. It isn't over until you get what you want. Tomorrow you get another shot. You can and will win.

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good advice! you can wallow
Submitted by jas22 on Tue, 08/28/2007 - 19:44.

good advice! you can wallow a bit, darth-- and take on a 1/2 gallon of ice cream and cookies...but then you have to decide to make better decisions. well put, Mr. X.

hang in there, darth. clarity will come to you, as well as better decisions and better people in your life.

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Sounds familiar... Sounds like my Groundhog Day/Life...
Submitted by wageslaveZ on Mon, 08/27/2007 - 01:03.

Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace

Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape

I'm my own worst enemy

[chorus]
I've given up again
I'm sick of living
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared

I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And you don't care

I'm my own worst enemy

[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of living
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

[bridge]
Goddddddd!!!!

Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my
Put me out of my fucking misery
[end bridge]

[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of living
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

(Linkin Park: Given Up)

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