fuck this job.com

I need a lot more.

What it all comes down to, basically, is that only you can put a value on yourself. If you allow others to asign your worth, or rely on others to tell you what you are worth, you will surely be screwed in the ass.
Knowing a few things I am not supposed to know, but always suspected through common sense, has left me very bitter, resentful and unmotivated.
While I realize that it is every man for him or her self, still, there ought to be a somewhat level playing field to begin with. Then let everyone compete for the same trophy. And let the rules be the same for all players.
They aren't. Obviously.
What I know is that all others in my position make a substantial amount more (10 to 15 G) Since I am constantly struggling finacially and under constant financial stress, I find myself becoming more and more bitter knowing what others make. This is affecting my decisions and my attitude toward others.
I do not blame them. They are not the ones screwing me. I have done everything humanly possible to move forward. And still the proverbial carrot dangles, and still I chase it, pathetically trying to get just one small bite. I am a fool.

I have to get out now, while I am still marketable (barely). I think the only solution is to leave. Hell, right now, I would even take a job that paid the same, just as long as there was no carrot strapped to my head. Just as long as when people told me "if you do this, and this, and this......you will make more, you will move forward, there is a future here for you" and it actually fucking happened.

I'm so tired of being strung along like a stupid mule. Strung along with titles (and they even fucked me on that--and it didn't even come with money!!!!) Strung along with words of praise and ego boosting bullshit. But no money, no REAL forward movement. Only talk. Only empty promises, which the person who makes them, sometimes doesn't even recall. Even when you have it in writting!!!

I need out.

I am done.

I tried, I played by the rules, I took all manner of shit and shinola, I lowered myself, I went against all my instincts.

I'm done

I'm out first chance I get. Could take a month could take 6, but I am not buying any more crap. I just dont have the time left.