fuck this job.com

Ok so I can't stand it i need to vent. Can somebody tell me what the fuck this means? I have been working at this place for nearly a year and it's like an endless clusterfuck of projects and initiatives that never ever get finished and it's all like Dilbert pointy head boss shit.

Well, heres my story. I was a hairdresser for 5 years, being paid crap and working so hard. I ended going into the office industry I guess, working reception and such. I found that you get paid pretty decent wages, for not really doing anything, I got very bored and was (am) trying to start my own business. So after three years I decided that I did not want to work so much and try to get my business going, I went back to hairdressing, $10 per hour and no clients. In the midst of all this I ended up finding my dream job, which shall remain nameless. But it was working with animals, the pay was shit.

I had my annual review. At the bottom of the review it has future goals. My goals were to keep doing what I have been doing. I am rotting in this job but, the pay is OK. The next day I went to my manager and asked if she could perhaps create a supervisory position in our department and that after 8 years with the company, I felt I was ready to fill this position. She actually yelled at me. She slams her hand on her desk and says "DO YOU WANT MY JOB?, HUH, DO YOU?" I was stunned to say the least. That made any doubt in my mind that this was not a thankless, dead-end job to rest. Heck, I just had to go to the owner of the company to get a key to the closet where paper towels are kept. My manager wants me to ask her when I need to get in there, I can't anymore. When I think about these things, and there are many, many more, I feel like a little kid. You see, other people have this key so they can get paper towels but my boss doesn't want any of her people to have one. We all look like a bunch of chumps, asking permission to dry our hands off. Anyway, Friday I went to see a house. (The owner of the company rents to me so I sort of have all of my eggs in one basket, I can't live there and work at another company and the housing here is crazy priced. Homes start in my area at 700K.) Anyway, I went to West Virginia, I found a farmette on 2.5 acres an older couple is selling very cheap. On flat land, mountain view, huge garden with grapes, blue berries, peach trees apple trees, I can go on forever. I am nervous about this change but what I am doing now in my job is driving me crazy and I am not happy at all.

Cum, see me at www.myspace.com/monicamalone

Cum, see me at www.myspace.com/monicamalone

Karoshi-Death from overwork: Occupational health consequences
of the Japanese production management
(Sixth Draft for International Journal of Health Services)
(February 4, 1997)

Katsuo Nishiyama and Jeffrey V. Johnson
Department of Preventive Medicine, Shiga University of Medical Science, Japan
Department of Health and Policy Management
School of Hygiene and Public Health,
Johns Hopkins University, USA

Reprint requests to:
Dr. Katsuo Nishiyama, Department of Preventive Medicine
Shiga University of Medical Science, Tsukinowa-cho, Seta, Otsu, 520-21 Japan
Phone +81-775-48-2187

So its Saturday and I'm already dreading going back to work on Monday. As mentioned in my previous blog, I found my job posted on the internet last Saturday. I was growing suspicious because for about a month, my workload was increasing about 3 fold and my manager has been giving me the cold shoulder treatment. Finding the posting solidified it. I need to get out of that hellhole.

So I went to work last Monday and acted like I knew nothing. The week sucked. There were piles of work on my desk. Everyday, I had nine or so separate projects I had to complete that day. Amazingly enough, I got them all done each day. In secret, I had made plans to meet with one of the best headhunters in my Industry.

hey pig
yeah you
hey pig piggy pig pig pig
all of my fears came true
black and blue and broken bones you left me here I'm all alone
my little piggy needed something new
nothing can stop me now
I don't care anymore
nothing can stop me now
I just don't care
hey pig
nothing's turning out the way I planned
hey pig there's a lot of things I hoped you could help me understand
what am I supposed to do I lost my shit because of you
nothing can stop me now
I don't care anymore
nothing can stop me now
I just don't care
nothing can stop me now
you don't need me anymore

Yesterday a trip to Lowes.. forgot my fucking phone numbers but wasn't going to go back again just to sit in a filthy ass corner of the store on a metal chair and out of the corner of my eye see shithead customers walking in the automatic doors- did the best I could with the fucking PA/Tannoy right over my fucking head and someone screaming "GARDENING LINE 1! LINE 1, GARDENING!" The best was the little sign plastered to the side of the desk that read: "If you use illegeal drugs, don't bother!" Was so tempted to take my pen and correct the spelling and write below it, "Don't bother either if you can spell simple words!" I really liked the inbred putting away trolleys/carts eyeing me up and down while I'm filling out my application and trying to talk to me and I read on his badge that he's a 'LEADER'. For fuck's sake, where am I? Is this what my life is becoming? Trying to land a shit job in a BIG BOX? Well, one of the agencies called me.. a sweet job working with doctors on a temp to perm thing- fuck it, money sounded good. But it's a fucking interview! not go in and just start working- woman who was there before arrested for drugs and it made the local papers so they want to replace her ASAP. Supposedly going to interview with the supervisor of the front desk and the administrator. The admin. looks for all purposes like a tightass throwback to the 1940s. The pressed doublebreasted suit, the round glasses- he also reminded me of a child snatcher from a kid's movie I once watched. (Anyone who knows this movie please tell me)but fuck it, who cares what he looks like-I'm here to ace this shit not fuck with unemployment (which is going to be a battle) and at least start working Monday morning. It's the usual shit- strengths, weaknesses, what makes me think kinda thing. Then we get into my last position and why I was terminated from the store-told my story- then it gets weird. The doctors are not nice people-you work for the doctors. The wives of the doctors are also doctors and they work here as well.. (So let me get this straight, both husbands and wives who are doctors here are self-centered assholes, right?) We deal with life and death here so detail is important.. (no shit?)

Monday. morning. OK, it was Thursday that I got canned. It's Monday now. Spent the weekend lost in alcoholic haze-now it's Monday. It's getting dressed and going to unemployment and then walking the strip malls trying to find something that doesn't exsist- Having to smile and act like I believe in myself and the goodness of the world-but believing nothing but total shit and who's the next prickwart waiting around the corner to have a go at me. It was getting up fucking early on Sunday because a friend offered to get me something where he worked-but the manager was too busy to speak with me so I'll hang out in the lobby like some homeless tramp and when someone speaks to me-the words that will come out of my own mouth will shock me with their desperation..

The company I work for used to just suck. Some days I could tolerate it, most days were a nightmare. Lately, management has been really hostile towards me. Last night, I figured out why. My manager posted my job on two job sites. Initially, they told me they were just hiring on extra help. The listing, however, is listed for a complete replacement.

They list all my current job functions and have them all as requirements for this "helper job". They told me it was a different title, a Junior version of my current job. This posting, however, lists my position. Sneaky ass bastards are going to try to get me to train my replacement! WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF SHIT IS THIS!!! Unethical bastards. They should be straight with me rather than trying to make my job suck so much that I quit on my own after I train my replacement. Wow. I'm onto them. There will be NO TRAINING!

I know you've deceived me, now here's a surprise
I know that you have 'cause there's magic in my eyes

I can see for miles and miles and miles and miles and miles
Oh yeah

If you think that I don't know about the little tricks you've played
And never see you when deliberately you put things in my way

Well, here's a poke at you
You're gonna choke on it too
You're gonna lose that smile
Beacuse all the while

I can see for miles and miles
I can see for miles and miles
I can see for miles and miles and miles and miles and miles
Oh yeah

You took advantage of my trust in you when I was so far away

For all those bitching and moaning, why don't you go out and find something that makes you happy. If your unhappy where you are then change your situation. Why stay where you are? Are you afraid of change? Don't think you can do any better? Low self esteem? Or do you just like something to bitch about? Just think about it for a while. Take a good long look at yourseves! And make a change.....

Any thoughts??

Just another nobody out in internet land...

I spent the last day working like a lunatic for my boss Sue. She had me running around doing all sorts of crazy things and blaming for anything she could think of. She goes to a meeting and screws up using her digital tape recorder. Who's fault? Mine. She said I gave her the recorder full (even though it had well over 1 hour free on it when she handed it to me. Rather than explain the problem, she just starts flipping out at me. In fact it was her fault for just pressing all the extra buttons on it. I know some people aren't very technically savvy, but come the fuck on. Its a god-damn recorder! Its not like you have to program anything! I mean, you can use a fucking cell phone and you can't use this?

I got a pay rate increase merit review notice, ha! I dont know why? The last one I recieved I never actually got an increase. Ya they give the dept. managers and GMs the option of not giving you your increase. LOL here are some of the catagories they can check off for not getting a raise.(I am none of the below at least not at work)

Lazy, disruptive, bickers, gossips, uncooperative, insubordination,(LOL)
excessive tardiness,(maybe retardedness) customer complaints, irresponsible behavior, not willing to work evenings or weekends, questionalble attitude. etc.... Is it me? or is this hillarious? Oh and there is a blank spot for other reasons